Whenever I feel bad about something in my life I try and think of someone who is worse off than me. Not to feel superior or anything, just to put my own life into perspective and stop feeling sorry for myself. I think everyone is feeling a little sorry for themselves these days. Loneliness, isolation, lack of connection and purpose, missed trips, missed dinners, the list goes on. Today I was actually feeling ok about life. I made a phone call to an elderly couple from our church, just to check in. I found out that the woman is in the hospital with pneumonia and is on oxygen. She also has a lung condition that makes her even more compromised and at risk for a virus. No visitors are allowed so she is battling this alone. Then my former sister-in-law called to tell me that my nephew’s baseball team’s trip to the Cooperstown tournament has been cancelled. Tough blow for a 12 year old who loves all things baseball. My daughter told me a story of one of her students with severe autism who is becoming violent and aggressive at home. The family is in crisis. My good friend’s dad has stage 4 kidney cancer and will have surgery this week. No visitors before, during or after his hospital stay. It will be a long time before it is safe for her to see him again.
I did have to cancel my trip to St. John but right now I’m feeling pretty ok about it.